Went to church with Tista and Ervand today. It was a great evening, although there's something wrong with ervand. he seems so strange, it's like he's avoiding talking to me. or more, he seems like trying and acting like i'm not there. it kinda hurt... but after talking to tista, i somehow got what's the reason he might acted like that..

tista is right, i kept on thinking that guys never gives me sureness. but in reality, i'm the one who never gives that to myself. and those kind of attitude makes them go confused about me.. did i make my point there? or is it my thinking twisted the whole idea??

and i feel so terrible ... i feel guilty to ervand.